updated 03/10/2013 AT 3:15 PM ET
•originally published 03/11/2013 AT 9:15 AM ET
Olivia Wilde is happy to have had her heart broken.
“I had grown up with Tao; we had just drifted. I felt I had something to prove. If you fall off a horse, you get back up. I am not a quitter. I hung on for as long as possible, until it was more hurtful to stay … I’m so grateful for the pain and the heartbreak. It gave me the courage to leave and brought me the great love of my life,” she says.
“I was just learning to be by myself. We were both seeing people but were single. He seemed to really see me, see through the b––t. He said very few words and couldn’t keep eye contact. He was so handsome and he could dance,” she says.
Six months later, the couple went out for the first time and Wilde reveals that she had her doubts. “I thought, ‘He won’t be interested in me; I’m not a contender.’ He was so cool, so funny – I was such a fan of his and had always fancied his speed and his intelligence. He’s a brilliant actor with a brain like lightening,” she says. “I thought ‘I’m not beautiful enough or his type.’ I couldn’t wait to sit down and hear him talk.”
But after that first date in New York City, Wilde says the couple “closed down the restaurant at 2 a.m” and that while Sudeikis “didn’t kiss” her she was “madly in love.”
As the couple moves forward with their relationship, Wilde says she “can’t wait for children.”
“I’m open-minded about how many, but three, which I love, is like a little party. I am not trying to have kids now – there’s no strict plan for anything in my life. What happens, happens. He’s so good with kids … I’ve never before experienced looking at someone and thinking, ‘That’s who I want to raise a child with.’ “